...All I Need Is YOU...

2010-05-07T08:38:00.002+08:00

Been feeling abit down whenever i see my friend feeling upset.
Well these days i have been thinking of things.
Not say bad ones but neutral ones..

Firstly this incident happened i think in march..
A friend showed attitude towards me duno is bcos of my bf or wadever reason when i met up for gathering.
Well even friends of us knew it. So obviously my friend has reached the limit. I did nothing wrong...just hope that friend will think through and reflect rather than think that i am in the wrong. in the first place my friend didnt say that cannot bring anyone along. so ya..forget it..true friends will not be like that..what goes around will come around...thats what i believe..

Another thing is being neutral in friendship is really hard to be.. as i am stuck in between two group of friends..kind of challenging as i dont want any enemies..
Still being neutral as i believe no one is perfect in this world..neither am i..haha..

Hmm mother's day, father's day and daniel's birthday is coming..woohoo...expenses again..haha...planning something for dear dear..

Erm..dates asked...time is drawing nearer..excited yet worry...uncertain of the plans..just take one day at a time ba.. hee...

Okay back to lesson..yawn..

2010-05-05T22:05:00.000+08:00

Boredom...that's all i can say...sigh...

2010-04-29T01:05:00.002+08:00

I've learn something today..

Four things that you can't recover:
"The stone after its thrown; The words after its said; The occasion after its lost; The time after its gone..."

Well despite the fact that i dont like somethings the way it's done, yet it has been chosen to be that way.
I no longer can put much hope in the future between us but just slowly wait to see if i'm able to find my happiness in life.

Guess i have to put more effort in my career now other than any other things.
Love myself first...

2010-04-21T20:52:00.002+08:00

This is the fifth week of my training. Well the course started with me having a wrong mind set of which i thought that my lecturer was being super strict..but then as the days goes by i actually learnt alot from her.

Glad that she taught us for that super dry module.
She made it interesting and also get us into different groups doing various motivational activities.
And the ending part was abit sad because we all loved her...thanks Ms Krempl...

Oh ya and should thank our class monitor..he bought sundae for the whole class! =D
I'm getting the hang of loving "creative lessons"...

Sealing with a kiss.....

2010-04-09T10:18:00.002+08:00

I shouldn't be blogging at this time but I just could not pay attention since yesterday. Sigh...i know i am losing out but I just couldnt help it.

Should be more responsible of my own learning. Well I am doubting whether to apply for UNi, as firstly is the financial part..secondly is what I really want in life.

Think I am still on the peak of entering adulthood..not in a good way as I do feel at times that I am struggling. Hopefully things will change as time passes by.

Met new friends during training. And I feel that they would be more to my long term friendship. Though each individual have different characters but i felt as though our friendship is much more stronger as compared to my long friendships with my schoolmates.

Well I guess that's what true friendship is ba. Going for dinners with school colleagues next week and also out with my training colleagues! Fun, fun and more fun!
Haha.. I miss those packed days with schedules are fully packed for me. =)

Cheers for my new venture in my career, new friendships and fulfilling lifestyle! XD

2010-03-30T22:14:00.002+08:00

Training started,
Work load increases,
New friendship created,
Lasting yet happy relationship,
And on-going fulfilling life...

Well been a bit down recently..maybe due to new environment and i'm at the beginning stage of entering young adulthood.

Training for the first week was okay..lectures, tests, group work and presentation.
This week's lecture was engaging but the lecturer went a bit too far. Too much activities..its like every 5 minutes..all of us were drained dry..not physically but mentally.

Today the kid hit someone in the eye with the ruler..i just told the kid off and he cried. Sigh..maybe the way I handle was not right..but I dont think in a sense that its wrong. I just said.."Hey! Victor, you cannot do that ah...what must you say to Kor kor?"..and he burst into tears.

Sometimes parents or caregivers pampered them too much until the child will tend to cry whenever they did something wrong and being told off..*not yet even scold* sigh..
Well why make my life miserable? He is not my own child, why do i even bother to groom their behaviour? It's non of my business right?

Guess I am too busybody. Well its okay lesson learned. Just heck care of other people's business and only care for those I teach? Is that the right mindset? I doubt so..but then sometimes being good will hurt myself even more especially I am those whom feel very bad whenever I see someone crying.

Its easy for people to say "Learn to take and also LET GO at the same time", cant be emotional...well its true in reality because I will be very very emotional or tired if I never learn to let go but IT'S NOT AS EASY as said.

Another thing which make me kind of upset is people are selfish creatures. I believe that I am included too. Now then I realize that knowing who is our best friends and who are our friends is important. There is no ultimate BEST FRIEND. Just have to know who is truthful and who are just so called hi-bye friend.

Anyway getting to know more friends is good too. I've met lots of grate friends just these days in school...haha..enjoying my study days although its kind of packed and tiring. Just remember one thing Lee Wah.."What goes around, comes around", never be selfish, never ask anything in return..just be yourself!

Dear, I just want to say...I LOVE YOU..thanks for everything and it's going to be our 7th month together!!! XD

2010-03-21T01:51:00.002+08:00

I've understand the meaning of friendship..
Thanks for letting me know the truth..

Scorpio..
EXTREMELY adorable. Loves to joke. Very Good sense of humor. Will try almost anything once. Loves to be pampered. Energetic. Predictable. GREAT kisser. Always get what they want.. Attractive. Loves being in long relationships. Talkative. Loves to party but at times to the extreme. Loves the smell and feel of money and is good at making it but just as good at spending it! Very protective over loved ones. HARD workers. Can be a good friend but if is disrespected by a friend, the friendship will end. Romantic. Caring..

Well it's really true..especially the last sentence on friendships..

2010-03-13T19:11:00.003+08:00

It's been a long time ever since I blogged.
Main reason people will think is that I am too busy with my boyfriend.
But no..it's because, I'm too tired after my work until everyday after work, I don't feel like going anywhere but to chill at home, including weekends.

Work for me has been on-going yet never ending..haha
Everyday will be busy in the labs..
My time spent in the labs are almost 10 hours a day.
Yet I notice that some of my colleagues try to compare themselves with me.
They thought that my job scope is just easy-going without the need to go into classrooms.

But they never think of how busy I am doing preparations and clearing.
Whenever students have practicals, most of my time will be helping out.
Had no time to even clear the lab stuff.
Just change for one day then they will realize what is job scope.
Sigh typical human beings..

Shall end here..for more updates, keep look out in facebook.

2009-12-04T12:20:00.002+08:00

I cannot stand it anymore.
Why am i born?
What have i owned them?
Such self conclusion character is driving me crazy.
I couldn't take it anymore.
What you want to do just do.
I dont care anymore.
I wont eat with you.
I wont talk to you.
I hate myself for now being able to make you a better parent to me.
I hate myself for being such useless to you.

My help all come in vain.
I am no one to you.
I am just a passerby.
I am just someone stupid.
I am just someone who cannot do big things.
I am someone who cannot be trusted.
Happy?

I hate being myself.
I hate it.
Let me just go.
Go to a place where i have no feelings or thoughts.
One day if i really cant take it,
I shall just leave everything behind.
EVERYTHING.

2009-11-28T21:40:00.003+08:00

Hee been very lazy or can say my time is fully used up everyday.
Very fulfilling and satisfying.
Yes i admit that i am very xin fu.. =D

Hmm well went to marina with dear to eat hot pot again but think next time can go try yukl yaki..
Hmm yesterday went marina again..we went for fish spa, bowling and to soft toy fishing..haha very fun.. hee..
dear also won me a cute cute doreamon which i lazy to take photo..but display in my room..haha those coming for cny den able to see it..its the nicest among all doreamon..cos its colour and smile is nice..really..

Cannot imagine..how come dear is good in most things?
Singing, Talking, Bowling, Basketball shooting, Computer gaming, Cooking and Soft toy fishing..gosh..we gotten a big bag of sweets but we gave them back..haha..just won a medium doreamon and elmo home..hee..

Shld find time to go bowling with dear..haha..
Okay shall end here..

2009-11-21T22:18:00.004+08:00

Today is the 21st of November..woah..the last time i've ever drop by my blog was on the 8th November..think it's about 2 weeks le.

Well within this few weeks, i've been very busy and also very happy with life.
Thanks dear for understanding and willing to give in a lot to me.
I know that i am being over protective about somethings but i cant help it. Thank you for sacrificing just for me.

Well some photos of the month.

And thanks a lot to karen, jeff, hweehwee, lucas, yan wen, simon, samuel (dear's brother), samuel's gf, dear's parents, shu fen, zhang yao, meily, wen qian, elaine, my colleagues, mama and dear for the presents and wishes and to those whom remembered my birthday...thank you...
May you all have a great december to come!

Hee althought this year received 8 presents only..but impt thing is not the presents..but is the wishes and gathering of cliques..

Heyhey..going msia in december! haha..
Well i'm very happy that this is the first time that i have someone special to celebrate my birthday with me and i am very proud to say that i have a very caring and loving boyfriend. I'm really touched..

Aim High Get Far...

2009-11-08T17:34:00.002+08:00

Today is the 8th Nov.. hmm been a week ever since i blogged.
Well recently there's a teacher being terminated due to him posting wrong things in facebook..
Seriously..being a teacher, of cos need to set a good example.
Sigh..pity..

Been busy doing the things i enjoyed yet stressed up..
In december most probably will be back in msia.

Sigh..maybe i dont understand guys..why when one is attached, yet still wanting to add other pretty girls in facebook?
Maybe i am thinking too much but which girl is willing to see her guy adding other girls? Even my girl friends told me that they dont let their guy add their own girl friends.

Well i dont know la..maybe that's the part where makes me feel insecure ba.
I dont voice out cos i dont want to be unreasonable.
Just be it ba..but if really one day something goes wrong in our relationship..then just too bad for me.

HMm i've been too lazy to upload photos here..so if wanting to see photos..mostly will be uploaded in facebook. Okay shall end here..
Sigh..thinking how to celebrate my bday..
Sigh..

2009-10-31T15:37:00.003+08:00

It's been days ever since i blogged.
Mainly is busy but partially i was lazy.
Haha my days are much occupied with work, family, relationship and friends.
Got no time for myself to exercise or can say i am just plain lazy but i will once it rain lesser..

This week was a fulfilling week for me.
Apart from doing paperwork, i was assigned for relief in different classes and monday was a surprised and a challenge for me. I was assigned to be an invigilator of P1 class. Not only invigilate but also to conduct the exam for them meaning i have to read out their listening compo.

I was scared and worried but manage to pull myself thru and i have the confidence in my own voice. Haha!
Tuesday to friday was standby day for me but still manage to handle most things. The most unforgettable day was on wednesday. Sigh i shall not say what happened but now i know how should i handle somethings which requires reverse psychology.

Well i have been eating more ever since i was assigned to run about in school for different relief lessons. And i know that during holidays i MUST do some teaching resources for myself so that next year when i go in for relief, at least i have something for the class to do.

Hmm relationship wise, everything is going smoothly.
Planning to go on holiday but guess will plan for a longer trip next year.
Reason is cos i dont want dear to take leave cos he just joined the company not long. I want him to leave good impression to his company.

Friendship wise, everything is so so..seldom have contacts other than shu zhen, hwee hwee and karen sometimes..
More contacting is to my working colleagues and other school teachers.
Seldom use msn too.

Sigh i wanted the INQ mini 3G phone..but seems like i cant bear to open another new line just to take that phone for free. And the promotion ends yesterday. Sigh..nvm ba..think i will buy a phone when my two old phones spoils. Got to save money for good use.

haha mama was cute yesterday. she told dear that i can marry after a few year. Faints..i didnt expect her to tell dear that. *shy*
Hmm alot ppl asked me how i am going to celebrate my bday..answer was oh..i dont know..haha..mayb not celebrating ba..more to going out treating my family and his family for a meal thats all which i can tink of. Hee..

Shall end here..got better things in life other den blogging..haha
That's the life i want! Thanks dear..

2009-10-24T21:49:00.007+08:00

Wednesday met su and went to visit da jie and yang fan.. but didnt see unicel around.
Thanks da jie for the crystal braclet. Pink color =0

Haha but its okay..
Well went to mind cafe princep then bugis then after went back home.

Friday night met hong wei tgt with dear for dinner at marina square. Yes i didnt regret going there. haha Guess going out with daniel is not only fun but also surprising plus exciting. There is always laughter and new things to try out. Woohoo..thanks dear! Muacks!

Just let the pictures do the talking. Haha i have lots and lots of happy moments. Ohh..i'm so going back there to celebrate papa's birthday! Its worth the price and also the food is nice! Wakaka..soon..hee 3 more weeks to go!

Hmm how do i want to celebrate? I dont know..
When i was young, i love to receive presents.. well to be frank, i do wish to receive lots and lots of presents too but then i also dont feel good if people spend money on me. But if its me buying presents for ppl is okay..=p

My oh my..how i wish i have money to buy the things i wanted. Guess in life, human being is never satisfied haha.

Lots of things i want..but guess will have to slowly fulfill it.
And first thing i have to get in my list is..handphone.. my hp is really dying soon. Haha.. mum angry why i called so many times nvr say anyting but its not my fault..is i called but i cant even hear anything..then restart my hp, then i can call le..funny device.

i want to buy lots and lots of clothings, shoes and handbags..=x
How am i going to save money to buy my ideal hdb flat sia..faints..
Hmm oh ya..guess clothing can buy bit by bit but hopefully by end dec i can give myself a christmas gift..haha a laser printer cum scanner for myself. guess i'll need it for work. Haha..

Other than that..i think the rest can wait ba.. since i have the things i wanted in life, family, boyfriend, career, friends, food...haha now aiming for studies and flat..jia you..i know i can fulfill it de.

Oh just browsing thru facebook..i didnt know that grace was alrdy married..not until i saw her facebook. haha..
A lot people asked me when am i ringing the bells.. haha well guess will have to wait ba..this thing will have to depend on both family side and also daniel. Not forgetting the resources and commitments and compromise of each other's behaviour. Marriage is not the end but it's how we bond and accept each other's flaws. Oh ya..and before i get to ring the bell, i want to slim down! Omg..got to do something..=/

Hopefully by then dear can stop smoking..

Woohoo i gotten my card and vpn! Yippie! So happy..

2009-10-23T11:47:00.002+08:00

This MV very touching.
Tears just flow..like last night while watching channel 8.. when the guy flew back and proposed to her. Awww... so touching..

2009-10-21T11:37:00.005+08:00

Happy Birthday 24th Yaming!

Well yesterday went out with dear for yaming's birthday drinking at boat quay. Before we went qi li xiang, i went into BQ mind cafe to visit my manager..but lilu was not there instead rik was there..and know what..

I saw one lady inside playing..then rik suddenly intro..and i found out that she is nabin's wife...yes his wife..i was stunned cos rik said she comes down every tue nite to play..hmm okay.. sigh i dont feel jealous but i just feel that i really lose out to her..she is really small size and pretty.. also smart (engineer)..

Hmm i didnt show that i was awkward but instead smiled and said hi to her..then i went off.. Till now i'm still having the feeling of uneasyness. Reason is cos i am being betrayed by someone i thought i can love.

Well doesnt matter.. now i am very very happy with daniel. XD
I didnt know at first that kenny and zhi ming are camp-mates..
but doesnt matter le ba..since kenny nvr talks with me anymore.

Some photos..gosh i am super lazy to reduce photo size..faints..

Sia la checked on chalet..all fully booked. =(
Guess will have to plan other things ba..
Wa feeling drowsy.. boring sia...tis whole week no ppl in staffroom..sigh..yawn..

2009-10-19T14:39:00.002+08:00

woohoo..back to blog about friday! Haha me and daniel went to night safari.
Well all i can say that..its not scary! Hee although other ppl screamed but then going with daniel i have no regrets..haha..instead i laughed alot.

Hmm these few weeks together, i never fail to smile or laugh.
My mood everyday is getting better and better.
Even my confidence is getting more and more..thanks daniel.
Photos on safari is uploaded in my facebook..hee i lazy to post it here cos i have to edit the size..so for photos, just go my facebook and view ba.

Saturday is deepavali, Dear brought me to his colleagues house. Met his colleagues.
Haha we had a great time there..and his colleagues envy dear cos he has back up =p
Hee thats what being as a couple for ma..
Then after went down with dear to west coast. Hmm well i have no comments but i believe that whatever everyone has their own beliefs.

Sunday dear didnt go to work so went his place in the afternoon cos not wanting to disturb him so early as he need enough sleep. His dad is cute..haha
Then after we went back my place to have dinner with my parents.
After dinner, then we went down orchard..haha..fun..thanks dear..

Hee this photo was taken after we drank something really really unpleasant..haha dear so cute! =p

Well my cousin sis asked me when i'm ringing the bells..hmm haha not to soon ba i guess but wont be too long..
My relatives are happy that i've found my other half cos can say frankly that dear is the first guy i ever brought home and intro to my parents and friends as my "boyfriend" and not "guy-friend"..

mum kept asking me what are my next plans and that i should save up for my wedding day. yes mama i will..dont worry.. =)

2009-10-16T09:16:00.005+08:00

I've been busy ever since i got well from my flu.
Mainly is cos i wanted to finish the task assigned to me asap.
Although the deadline is only in early november..but i dont like to drag things.
Finish arhiv-ng the file of documents..erm think there are like more than 300 or 400 pages..haha but finally completed by tuesday..

And yesterday i also have done the 2 ppt slides and 2 worksheets for students..well its for a science activity during the holidays. Think its more for enrichment programme. Only thing for me is to wait for them to check and inform me what to amend.

Next week is psle marking..all teachers wont be in school, so i asked for work in advance since i have completed my tasks on hand. And i know for sure if i dont ask i wont have things to do. So now i have 3 prelim papers to scan, sort out all the prelim questions into different chapters and next week taking photographs of students during cip hours and also video-ing.

Haha..did my 1st relief on wednesday morning. Well did nothing cos mainly is bcome nanny of P6 classes. Hmm all i can say was..i need to improve myself more. I know i can but i need time.
Hmm today will have another relief of P6 class cos my mentor is not around today.

I'm scanning next week's work today..haha think i can complete the task very fast oso. Although my friends will say "aiya work cannot do finish de"..but i have my priority which is work is work..i want to finish asap so that i can learn and discover new things.

Hmm well my school principle will be changing by 15th Dec..think i will miss her although i never get to interact much with her.
Well i have been putting on weight lately.
Think cos i have irregular dinner and also been sitting down in the staff room for the past 1 month though i sometimes i did walk around but i find that its just not enough.

Some photos to be uploaded...enjoy..

Been having nice food haha..hmm and also yesterday is my first time going shopping with my boyfriend. Never really shop around when i am with bf in the past..
Hmm dear chose 2 tops for me..wa..my cupboard really didnt have those color tops before..can say my first and wont be my last..haha
Felt that dear likes me to dress up and also found out what type of girl's dressing will turn him off..=p

We shopped around and also bought somethings..omg..haha think i am loving The Face Shop products..hee..thanks to dear..he kept on telling me that i should pamper myself with those things. And ya really..the pdt is really really nice! Faints we two fell in love with the same things. I'm very happy whenver i am with dear. Thanks dear for always making me happy. He never fails to cheer me up.

And also now victor starts to like me..haha he is not my bf..he is daniel's kid..haha the kid which his mum looked after.
Victor is very hyper..and also very violent. But i'm trying to change his way of treating ppl.
Haha hope i can do it..and i believe i will.
Now he is starting to like me. Also starting to learn words.
I want to make him have knowledge of some daily life things before he goes to K1.
Did resources for him to do as homework and he loves it. Haha.. will create more for him.

My dear daniel....

This is dear and victor...

The tops which dear chose for me yesterday at imm.

Me and dear..

The nice food we ate...

Well recalling my relief session, the girls and boys like to chat with me.. =p
Haha..they are really adorable..hee..
Okay going for class..

Haha tonight going Night Safari with dear! Enjoy! haha..

2009-10-13T01:00:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday Hwee Hwee!

Sigh morning was totally exhausted..well these days working afternoon..
Wa..dont know whether can wake up on wed early morning ma..cos one week working afternoon shift. Omg..

Stupid me forgot to bring adapter..
So used school com instead of mine cos wanted to save my batt.
Hmm school started at 1pm but i arrived at 11plus..had brunch in school then started to do my archiving..

Hmm rained in the afternoon..burrr i'm not used with air conditioning yet..
Think thats why i fell sick.
Drank more water..cos felt like sleeping..
Then soon when i noticed, its alrdy 430pm..woohoo..went off down to daniel's hse..
His mum opened the door for me..

Hmm hee heng victor was asleep so i can do my school work.
Waited for dear to come back ..when i saw him..i felt so happy. Haha he is the "happy fruit" in my life.. =D

After dear showered, we went down to meet hh and the others..
Went sakura to eat..hmm the buffet there so so..tink mayb town area much nicer..
But its okay la..hee..hmm total 7 ppl go eat..was abt 186plus..
Haha had great time with them..esp dear..and also hh and karen..so long nvr hang out with them le..

Dear thanks..i love you..
Some photos..enjoy!

2009-10-12T01:59:00.003+08:00

All i can say that i didnt regret being with Daniel.
Well for my friends who do read on my blog often, you all might have a thought that i am dont know what kind of girl..but thats up to wadever you all want to think. As long as i know what i want in life and i never betray anyone at any point of time.
I've been throught things which i encounter not good experience..and i have learnt my lesson. But not to lose hope in finding the path i want.

I've been very very happy when i got attached with daniel.
My close friends notice it too..
There are changes in me.
Well yesterday (sat)..did have some problems which occurred..but everything is settled.
reason is misunderstanding between me and my mum. but i've told her how i felt and she now understands me more.

Back to my life..
Ever since i was being touched by daniel's true nature, as in the things he told me and he did proved it to me..i really appreciate it.
Thanks dear for proving yourself. Now i can really really say that I LOVE YOU.

Well before i was being attached with him, he actually told me that he really liked me and meant what he said.
I didnt believe him at that point of time but things he done really made me trust him and believe him.

He brought me home to meet his parents even when i was not his gf.
And his parents told him that they liked me right from the start when they saw me.
ai was kind of shocked.
Soon after when i was being touched by his words on that very night when we went out together with him and his friends, he actually took the initiative to tell his out to me.

Subsequent days we actually met almost everyday except saturdays..
Reason was sat he has something to do..so that day is considered my family day! haha..
Hmm we've been meeting up after work for most of the days ever since we were attached.
And he wanted to meet my parents and let my parents, friends and even his colleagues and friends know about us..
So i brought him home to meet my folks.

Wa..he actually passed! My mum liked him and after a few days when my dad met him..he too liked him..woohoo..dear is great!
Hmm all i can say is..whenever i need him, he will be there..and never once i did lost my smile..cos he really made me very very happy.

Once i was sick..he actually took good care of me..
Bought food for my mum and even brought me out on dates and had nice food yet not too ex.
He held me close to him and never let people bully me.

Today (11/10/09) his parents actually asked me along for dinner tgt with him..
We went to temple to pray and then shop around bugis then went to Allson hotel to eat buffet. The food was okay but i have to say thanks to uncle for treating me..
Well i still wonder wads my impression to them? But dear said i passed ever since he brought me home as a friend.

Thanks dear...=D

Like i said..i cant please everyone..
But i will put my priority for my family first.
Mostly when i didnt fulfill my promise..reason is cos of parents..cos parents are the most impt persons in my life..although bf and friends are impt too but still parents stand a higer percentage..

Sorry guys if i did made u all upset but i had no choice if not my parents wil not be happy. i will amend it back..sorry..

2009-10-10T18:45:00.003+08:00

There bound to be unhappy moment whenever you experience the joyful period..
That's life..

How i wish i was dead.

2009-10-07T17:12:00.001+08:00

Been on mc for two days...sigh..
Sian work less den 1 month den mc..
Too many things happened this few weeks.
Well have to look forward..jia you lee wah!

2009-10-02T16:26:00.001+08:00

Sorry readers..This blog is now dead till further notice..wont be blogging here for the time being..

2009-10-01T23:22:00.002+08:00

Actions speaks louder than words..i just have to face it..
9 days more to go..

Went to meet Claudia this afternoon.
Gotten part of my profiling test..
Wow..wadever she said was true about me..
She said that i have to really make myself cuter..and dress up more..faints..wa..stil not enough ah?
Dress more in brighter colours..
Set a goal for myself and plan for my financial..orh..okay..
I am an analytical person..can make the right decision if its apart from relationships.
Meaning that if i am being affected by my relationship..i tend to do the wrong things..
True..

i have strong elements of earth and wind..(if i nvr remember wrongly)
These two are my two killer points..and ya..both is just as balanced as each other..
And she said that if i dont handle properly, i will have depression..
Orh..okay lor..

Went to daniel's place to play facebook games..
Didnt know that its fun to play the games which i am bored in the past.
Haha..well of cos his parents are at home..
Oh my..his mum went for hua liao..hope auntie gets well soon..
Then went home by 8pm..eat with parents..den watched baby bonus..hehe..the baby super cute!!! XD

Hmm thinking abt my rs..
Is it what i really want for life?
It's killing me as time goes by..
Sigh..wished that i dont have emotions..
i'm brain dead soon..

2009-09-30T09:38:00.007+08:00

Wa..left school at 5pm..faints..
Went ntuc to buy vegetables.
Then after went to raffles marina..waaaa..first time been there..omg its a romantic place..awww..
Thanks for the dinner brother! =D

Really nice place for couples..can really sit down there and enjoy the sunset and also the breeze..omg..

Then reached home, went to settle my veg things..after showering, it was already 12am..so did the cutting for the small gift for 3G class..
but felt so tired i doze off think at 1.30am..By right wanted to wake up at 5am but couldnt wake up..so 530..woke up and continue with cutting and then ironed clothing and oso make my own breakfast.
Thanks mama for helping me iron one shirt..didnt have time to iron that if not i sure late..

After packing then went out of house late..reached school on the dot..
Hmm at 830am went to class and gave out the present =D
By right if i wanted to make it much nicer, i could but i didnt have the time to fold 86 hearts..faints..

Been thinking thru much yesterday..
And decided that i should concentrate on my work.
I dont mind if i miss my chance if i couldnt catch it on time..
But i couldnt miss my chance in my career cos if i fail in tis career den i wont have another path to choose from.
Depends on fate whether dear want to hold tightly onto me..
If choose to let go then just say its too bad that fate doesnt bring us tgt ba..
But anyway..wads the outcome.. i have to face it..

Oh my..my shoulder is killing me..
hope my pay faster come..
biang have alot of things to buy and oso owe ppl alot of treat..faints..
got to plan carefully.
Sigh today bet i am very tired..later still got performance..haha..
Well going to video..hee see if i could upload then show you guys ba..haha..
Hee today wore my doreamon tshirt to school..cos its cartoon and super heros day..haha..cool yea?

Presents for kids

Dont knw whats wrong with me..have to eat afew hours if not i sure will have headaches and shoulder cramps..sobs..

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Time: 3:12pm

Hmm nothing to do so started blogginh again. went to perform just now..
Wa..when zhang yao help me tie my hair.. i was like omg..0.o
Everyone say cute..faints..ugly lor..
Then went back stage and wore the uniform..
haha 5 of us (3 girls and 2 boys)..really looked like students..
And everyone said i look alike the most. Cos i was the guai (good-girl) type..
Lol..well i dont know..lets look at photos taken.

Hmm performance went well..haha i didnt forget my role..
Only part i was shy when we had to walk around the kids.
Haha hope the kids cant regconise me ba..hee..
Cos i changed my hairstyle. =x

Tired..now blogging in taka..lol..
awww saw ppl eating ice-cream! Faints..i am so going to eat one this sat.
Hmm how i wish i could teach one whole class..
And also handle one class without any help.
Not forgetting to let the children love me and enjoy attending my lessons..
I believe that it'll be the greatest gift being a teacher.

Okay shall end here..yawn..might sleep early tonight ba.
Dig out my brain and muscles..its killing me softly.
Will i have a happy ending?

A friend once told me..
"Relationship can boost a career like a pillar to a building, while it can also be a virus if things dont go well"

[Things i want to do / get]
- Presents for HH,Zhang yao, papa (oct and nov baby)
- More tops for work
- Sports gear
- Heels (similar to the one i have)
- p1 to p6 revision books (Maths and Science)
- Create a set of alphabets (a game used during relief)
- Sets of ppt slides + teaching materials by end 2009 (preparation for 2010)
- Go for massage (once in two weeks if i have the money)
- Check out for SIM courses
- Pay HX and Su money (hmm cant rmb total how much but tink hx side is abt $35..and su's side is oso $35)
- Set aside money for transport, phone bill, meal allowance
- Get a LCD screen
- Colour printer
- New bras

Guess so far for now ba..1st pay cannot anyhow spend..i do feel the pinch of spending money.
Hmm Mdm Teo did told me that i might be co-teaching lower primary nxt year..well i hope i will be able to teach P3 and P4..haha..
Be the one to MAKE IT HAPPEN! Jia you!!!

2009-09-29T00:20:00.002+08:00

Hmm went out at 3pm yesterday..
Was mentally tired..
Feeling not in right mind..didnt dare disturb dear at work oso..
So went to check out the timing for movies..
And i have a movie in mind alrdy..
Since no one to watch with me..i might as well go watch myself.
Cos most of the time say want to watch with friends, end up i either watch it alone or i miss out that movie. Already missed out hangover, g.i joe. the proposal..

Had one hour to walk in ntuc to check out the price of the things i plan to buy..
Then after went to buy some cookie to eat cos was hungry yet didnt want to sit alone in foodcourt to eat..i still hate that feeling of being watched like an alien eating alone in foodcourt. sigh..
Then went up for movie..saw far corner..so that no one disturb and i wont get freaked out in the middle of movie when ppl walk pass me..haha i'll jump.
Its my very 1st time watching horror movie alone in a cinema..
Watched "Phobia 2"..well i observed that this movie..it shows 5 story or events..
One was something like karma thingi, followed by ward, then tourist, after that was salvage and lastly was in the end (actress shooting horror scence)..
All five storied have something to do with driving..sigh..the two stories which i find it very pityful which has sadness was both has to do with karma..(1st and 4th story)..what goes around, comes around..sigh..

Hmm after movie went back to print children's day things..hee..hope the kid will like it..
Then went to popular to buy the things i will need for school..ya lanyard..but of cos have to choose nice and user friendly de..where i can pull my tap card and oso hang my key..
Then met up with daniel awhile and went ntuc to shop..wa..thanks daniel..for helping me with the shopping..
felt touched that a friend will come accompany me awhile..then after he went off to find his friends in lavender..where i went to ta bao mama's food..den took train to chinese garden and walked home..

Think i am super weak this year..dont know why.
In the past i can carry abt 20kg plus and walk home without stopping. But today i stopped 3 times..omg..3 times!! I cannot imagine..and carry i was panting..omg..dont know whats wrong with my body.. guess my heartbeat is getting weaker..
Now thinking back on the day when i went check up for air force, the nurse look at me with that worried look and asking me whether did i do any rigrious exercise when she checked my heart beat..is it a worrying sign? I dont know..aiya nvm la..everyone has to die one day oso.

Reached home, pass mama her dinner den i went to tabao mine..she asked why i nvr buy..told her that i couldnt carry le..i no more strength..
Daniel said wanted to fetch me home but i reject the offer..cos i didnt want him to spend money on cab for me..anyway i appreciate his thoughtfullness.

Hmm bought...1 tin of Oats, 2 boxes of Cereals (cos left 2), wholemeal Bread, 1 bottle of balsamic vinegar, 1 bottle of parsley, lettuce, 10 tomatos, baby carrots, celery, 3 cans of tuna light, 10 green apples, 5 oranges, 2 whole pineapples, 2 1.5L of HL low lactose milk..but i forgot to buy more pads..omg..faints tmr have to go ntuc again..aiyo..i m very very forgetful tis year! Hump..angry with myself..

Hmm Hweehwee booked me every friday evening for swimming..Haha.. =D
Well been thinking of having badminton or tennis sessions..but duno who willing to play with me??
If not then i will have to stick to my jogging..but i having phobia in jogging.. =/

well appreciate that dear every morning gives me morning call..but i also worry that he doesnt have enough sleep..
Although i felt the sourness when i told him that no need to wake me up..actually i still wanted..but i know i cannot be so selfish..
Same goes with one of my friend..say want to come fetch me to school before going to work. wa faints..yes i do admit that i really wish that i can have a bf who can really do that for me..(reminds me of cynthia and her bf)..aww but then i am not so demanding or dont wish to b over demanding..unless its my husband then he sends me to school, i dont mind..but not bf..

Mum tot i went movies with someone..then got ppl fetch me home..dots..she thinks i'm queen meh..go ppl accompany and fetch..faints..
Sigh..keep on asking me abt ricky..faints..dat time want to bring home is she say dont want de.. now so eager to meet him..
I dont know what she wants too.
Told me off that i shouldnt eat cold food, sour food..orh...listen can le..sigh..

Was kind of scary when i got up from my seat..felt the whole cinema spinning..but soon after afew mins i was okay alrdy..
Heng nvr faint..hmm nvr faint in my life before oso..dont knw later got earth quake ma..haha..=p

Okay think i got to sleep..yawn..12 day to go..
Its not even a month yet am i feeling that the honeymoon period is fading?
By right i dont tink that there'll be any ending of honeymoon period but.....
Aiya stop thinking.. think how am i going to divide my 1st pay..sigh..felt the pinch in spending hard earned money..see la mother said dont anyhow spend when i was young, yet i dont listen..haha now regret le rite?? Hee =p

Mayb i should source for place to go tour alone..mayb cruise to nowhere or cruise for afew days. =D
Still got wad havnt i tried doing alone?

- Sentosa
- Overseas
- Staying outdoors
- Travelling back kulim
- Teaching a whole class
- Clubbing
- Hiking
- Photography around singapore

Oh ya..think i will want to go night safari oso now got halloween party..hee..
Mayb when i get my 1st pay..haha..
Hmm chinese garden seems to have mid autumn festival too..should go there walk walk ba..
Mayb tis weekend.. =D
shld love spending time alone more..then i wont have to depend on others..
Haha oh..photography around singapore..

Ok nite nite..yawn..

2009-09-28T12:27:00.003+08:00

being upset gives me gastric..sigh..
Lots of thought in me right now..
Relationship, friendship and work..sigh..

I should think through what have i dont this year..why am i like this?
How did i change to this state?
Is it like what the financial boss told me after seeing my personal profile? If i continue like this i will get depression at a very young age?
And like what dear asked me..do i have depression?
I tink i dont have and hope i dont have ba..
But which ppl have depression will admit they have?
For me i think i really dont have ba..i am not sick..

Wonder when then considered my relationship will be stable?
Is it like what ppl told me? Once the parents met up with me?
Sigh i dont want to think about it..

Lost a friendship cos of my character..
What a failure am i?

What more can i do?
I can give ppl the best advice they need..but i cant help myself.
Why is that so?
Dont know who to turn to when i am in emotional state..
Dont wish to give dear more pressure..

Dont know why i've been so emotional ever since i started school..
Now the only motivation for me to wake up early is every morning dear take the effort to wake me up at 5.30am..thanks dear..
But am i running away from somethings? I know i am being soft..but i dont know how to really be firm..
Dont know whether am i able to last long in this field?
If i cant..then i am really really a failure..

Been tearing so much these days..
All the past memories flashed back to me..poly days with karen, jilong and buddies, girl's outings, chalets, know more friends from work..getting in love with the wrong person.. and now the unmotivated me..and yet lost a friendship..
Why am i like tis???
Sigh..headache..

I dont know what to do..who to tell..where to hide..
everytime when i am alone..i...sigh
I may look happn on the outside but deep in me..i am not..
How i wish i just dont exist..then i wont be so upset with myself..
Dad and mum din know that what i am going thru myself..they always think i have lots of friends to go out with where either i go out with one or two friends or even alone..

Used to have lots of friends but now i dont know who to find..
Text some of my friends whether they free to go out with me awhile to buy things but all free only lazy to go out..
Guess i will have to do everything myself..sigh..
Movies alone..window shopping alone..everything alone is best la..sigh..
mayb ya i am not homely..
Mayb i am bad..be it wadever ppl think..
i'm sick and tired of my thinking, my goals, my life.. feel like crying all out..but i cant..think this weekend i want to go pray pray..sigh..

2009-09-27T20:19:00.008+08:00

kind of disappointed last nite.. well blame it on myself ba..my thinking and feelings.
mayb i am just over selfish when it comes to rs.
I really wish that men will mean what they really say..but usually most men dont..
Hmm just take note my friends..
"Don't say things or make appointment casually if really dont feel like or cant make it..to me..cos i dont wish to have those disppointment feeling. Thanks"

i am selfish when it comes to rs... yes i admit..and sorry to say so..
I can be giving in everythings like i said before..money (if i have), time, care, love etc..but 2 things i cannot share..is family love and also my bf/ husband..
i still prefer men taking initiative ba..
Guess different age group of men have different thinking.
Younger men might b very very xi xin..whereas older men might have a different way of expressing their love ba. So i cannot comment much.

Hmm ystday is my school's ISH opening and oso Mid autumn festival.
Haha seeing the kids is fun but having to face colleagues is not easy.
Politics i alrdy seen and heard..but nothing to do with me i just shut my mind..
As for me abt how i feel towards their character after deducing their actions..
All i can say is..i'm being too soft..yes very soft..
Hmm only thing is i have to learn to b firm like how other teachers are..if not i wil be told of as a kid infront of a teacher..sigh..and i dont like that feeling.

Ouch just bang my knee..sigh throw alot of junks out of my room le..stil have alot..dots..wish i could clear my room empty.
Hmm another thing was i dun like where things are not really properly planned.
Last min ask me go peel pomelo..i am okay la..but peel 1st time till my finger pain.
Lol good experience la..new year can do oso le.. Den after by rite vip got go tea session de but then end up dun hav. Okay ba..so i went to and fro helping tea pouring stall..mooncake making stall den walking around school.
But mostly time spend at tea pouring stall..i sweat alot..haha cos have to handle hot tea..phew..

About 9.15pm i went up office..den cool down till 930 and left.
Hmm then after dont wish to say wad happen..but home den slp..

Enjoy some photos.. =D
Photos of colleagues, ppl and others..enjoy..

today..
Liked these photos most as compared to others..

Me in school..

Hmm mayb i am not homely type of girl..
And also my emotions..terrible..sorry it cant be helped..sigh..
but i get bored when i have nothing to do..
Just want to spice up my life..any suggestions??

2009-09-25T20:41:00.005+08:00

Last nite dear told me he had to work on fri and sat..hmm orh..but he get off on sunday! Yahoo! Thanks dear.. =D
I'm so happy.. XD

Dear told me about his plans..i'm happy for him..
Jia you wor! Need help let me know! Will be there for you..=D

Today went to school as usual.
But no lessons today. So basically after assembly,
Went to have breakfast with zhang yao, elaine and chui ping..
Then after we all did our own things..
Went up and down to office to get things settle for the performance nxt week.

Sigh can say today not my day ba..
I've been taking initiative to ask what's my duty and what time to report tomorrow.
Find the teacher 4 to 5 times today.. and not only today but previous few days after since the contact time on wednesday..all she said was give me your name then i will tell you.

Then suddenly today saw her..she didnt even asked whether do i have things to do even when she saw me carrying things in my hand..she just told me go to science lab to help and just walk away so fast i couldnt say a thing. Obviously i have things to settle 1st..one is the performance which i can on hold..but another is for tmr..fern garden de..have to cut the photos..cos the office staff oso busy so she asked me to help..

So went to complete it within 30 mins or less den i went down to science lab..but no one was there.
Then saw the teacher again..den i asked her..she say oh they finish le..
Well obviously i was asking abt tmr's duty..not today ask min got things do den throw to me..i can help if u asked and not show me that face..well mayb i tink too much but it cant be so qiao ba..heard her saying so loudly..only can ask chinese language teachers to do things..other teachers cannot do anything one..

Walau..i hear le i was like..wth..just kept quiet..yet still i didnt give up on asking her cos i have my responsibility to my job..since i've chosen this path.
So i continued with the cutting of photos den after nothing else..i went back to office to do my things..the big lollipop and oso the A3 copies..
Think so far everything is almost done for my side.

Went down ate some light finger food with zhang yao..cos we both hungry.
Then 130pm office announced that there's buffet at the library..wow so much food..so we took abit of each up.
Look at the photo..its alot for 2 ladies..omg..faints..in the end we ta bao some of the food..
There's sushi, curry mutton, mushroom soup, garlic bread, potato salad, fish, you tiao, fried crab meat, mussels, brownies, dessert, fruits (dragon fruit, papaya, honey dew, watermelon)...omg alot alot..haha..
And 1st time i ate 3 mussels!!! Of cos not raw de..hee..its nice!!! yummy..

After 2pm..went to look for another teacher to get my tshirt for tmr..
Find him many times too..in the end at 3pm den got it..if not i can go home abt 2pm..
but nvm la..think in future school will be my second home liao..imagine 6.50 earliest reach school..or if hav duty i tink 630 reach school..den stay in school till 630pm..wow..12 hours..faints...

Well dont know why these days i have so tired..keep on sleeping in the evening esp after i eat something..i've gained weight..sigh..sobs..
Father back early today..he laughed when he saw me slping..diao..
Pulled me down to eat but i couldnt eat le cos at 4 plus 5 i ate the remaining food i brought home.

Miss dear..sigh..
Hmm heng dear couldnt come tmr..cos i wil be handling the pomelo..peeling them..den 6pm the teacher assign me to bcome bouncer..well obviously is to carry things around. =.='' think wil be heavy stuff ba cos have to report to male teacher..ok lor..
What to do.
Was wondering should i meet dear at nite tmr ma..but thinking again..maybe shld give dear some space too..i dont want to be too sticky..later dear find me fan den die lo..

Okay..enjoy some photos taken few days back..

Dear has lots of thoughts..i felt heart pain..

Anyone has good recommendation for massage? I just want shoulder massage..
(and kenny...i dont want you to massage for me ah..thanks..)
Neck and shoulder getting stiffer..dont know why oso..aiyo..my life alot of why why why. Sigh.

Mum oso not feeling well..keep saying her hip pain.
Then stil dont rest..sigh..
I assume its cos of the plastic chair she always sit on while using comp.
But she just wouldnt listen to me for once.
Still remember last year abt the incident where she fell into the big drain near msia house.
Told her to wait and follow where i walk..she dont listen chose her own way..den fell in it. Its very heart breaking when parents dont listen to wad their child say even if they meant good for them.
Told mum not to put so many files on desktop..if not later crash like last time..and its showing the same sign like her old laptop..den she just say aiya go away go away.
Does she know how i feel am?
Sigh..i nothing to say le lor..well cant blame me for staying inside my room everytime i am home.
Now its like dad always infront of tv..mum mostly in her room except when she wants to watch her tv programme...and me always in my room..
That's not the family life i want leh..

Sometimes i envy those teachers talking abt their family..them with their kids and husband..
and they are young..some 28 alrdy married for a year or two..wow..
And some i tink abt 30 or 34 ba.. alrdy have 2 kids studying in the same school. Gosh..means they get married around the age of 23 to 25..wow isnt that when they are in NIE? o.0 wonder whether is their husband oso teachers. Haha..

Oh..got to know that one of the teacher's mum is a teacher in school oso..lol!
Hmm okay next step is to go look for my vp to have a chat with her ba..find out more about the school..

Yawn..shall end here..sigh

2009-09-24T19:54:00.006+08:00

Busy this week.
Wed and thurs busy day for me..
Schedule almost fully pack.
Ystday met dear awhile den go meet shu for dinner den accompany parents..
Then at nite..sigh my fault..sorry.. i started it..

Well my eyes today kind of puffy and red this morning.
Colleague look at me abit weird tis morning..but then soon after everything was
okay..only pack with things to do..
Morning in class observe the kids getting excited abt childrean's day..
Then i was wondering what to give them for children's day? Hmmm..there are 43 of them..faints..haha if make i have to make 43 gifts..omg..
Will think aboout it..cos i like this class.. XD

Then back to office..ate my bee hoon..by rite bought 2 packs..one is breakfast..one is for lunch..but the pregnant teacher saw..then i sense that she wants it..so in the end i say i have one more pack..i just gave it to her..didnt even charge her since its not ex at all..but tis is the 2nd time i give her things..lol..first was a magnetic pen she saw on my desk..den today is food..but she's a friendly teacher..tink she from china? Nvm but she is friendly..

Went to check out wad tshirt i could get ...woohoo got new balance free polo t..school provide de..but havnt get yet..
Hmm then gotten another last min task..to cut photos but heng can ask office ppl help..but did halfway when i was observing lesson..
Then rush down to pass the things to office and oso blow up the props i wanted..
Hmm went to print more things and oso photocopy..

Then went for learning journey with the p5 kids..
Went changi world war II..
Wa..never been there b4..think one day i am going back there again..cos i didnt get to understand everything yet..

Went changi village for meal then to the beach..then after back to nan hua..
Omg..just 8 days in my work and i went home at 6.15pm..lol..
guess in future i will be the one going home late late oso..
today reached school at 6.50am..den end at 6.15pm..lol..almost 12 hours..hee..faints..

Some photos..enjoy. =)

Today i carried 800kg bullet! Lol..strong ma???
Hee see dear..i m stronger =p

Sigh..i was actually upset that couldnt have chance to go out with dear..
Not saying go shopping malls or places where money is required other den transport and food..i can go lib, hiking, or even just staying at his home to chill out tgt will do..to be frank, all i ask for is time spent tgt..sigh..but things gone bad ystday where the culprit was smses..and also my stupid thoughts.

Sorry that i've hurt you again dear..sorry. =(
Sigh..how i wish we're staying next door..

2009-09-22T22:57:00.002+08:00

yawn..took the attitute test in facebook..and results showed..
-calm and quiet-
you are the sort of person who likes to take life slowly... just one day at a time.. you usually know the differnce between right and wrong. you believe in yourself. you put yourself in other peoples shoes and see howit feels to be them and then handle a situation accordingly.your attitude towards life is very positive.... you are liked by all and are a great friend.the flip side is that sometimes you care too much about other people and dont do what you really wanna do..

erm last sentence is really true..haha

Been listening to chinese songs..i love slow and peaceful songs where the lyrics are meaningful..
Miss lots of the things in sec sch..but wad to do.
Haha..life has to go on..Life is a path that we must advance on..

what's my future perspective?
my mind is simple..
Work, happiness, Get married, have kids, nurture them, grow old and rip. =p Thats me..faints..haha..obviously i have dreams but then..not big ones ba..

Okay continue tmr..

2009-09-22T17:53:00.004+08:00

"What's on my mind?"..thats all i can ask myself.

Today woke up at 3am..cant sleep..so lied in bed till 5.30am..
Hee bet dear couldnt wake up..well my fault oso..made him have late nite sleeps..sorry dar..

Went to school as per normal..and guess wad?
Today's pledge taking was in english..oh..yuan lai ru chi..odd weeks is in chinese..even weeks is in english.
Haha..but still have difficulty in the san zhi jin.. =x

Morning did archiving of documents..then went to observed lessons..
Wow today bought fried bee hoon..its really yummy! and cost 1.40 nia..big packet..bcome my two meals le..haha ate half..den another half brought home to eat..
Hmm guess i have to learn how to speak cantonese..=(
The auntie..erm or can say elderly woman..she only knows cantonese..and mine was like not to basic standard..so paiseh..tried my best to communicate with her..sigh but..tried my best. Its damn funny of me while speaking..faints..

After lesson..did some printing of props..
Den received my schedule for nxt two days..sigh..can say abit packed only..ya..
Then tmr stil got contact time..and rehearsal..sigh..
Eee..borrowed the uniform..the biggest size..and i tried..ya i can fit in..faints..
Look so big lor..as in if i were a primary student..but then some students are alrdy taller than me..=x oops..

Woohoo..my invention..oats plus chocolate! Its yummy..drools..

I look so tired..

Next week got two days holiday! Hee..28th sept (monday) and 1st oct (thurs).. =p

2009-09-21T20:40:00.007+08:00

Been thinking alot abt dear lately..
Well dreamt of something scary ystday.

In the afternoon met up with kenny to watch 9..
Well i guess its harder for friends to meet up after school days esp for girls..
lol..been trying to ask friends out tgt but seems like abit hard to have time to meet up..sigh..life..

Hmm went to watch 9 at amk hub..cos by rite wanted to watch in cine but the sitting was not right..and took bus down plaza sing..sigh oso not the right timing..
Then after decided to go to amk hub.

Well the cinema at amk hub not bad..seating oso nice..esp couple sits..dear..nxt time can go there watch..oso nearer to dear's hse..
The movie was okay...tink it has a meaning of people's path is being created by one self. It depends whether you choose to lead it yourself or choose to avoid it.
Well thats how i felt after watching..not sure whether is it true or not.

Then after kenny sent me home..
Well thanks brother for the toys..aiyo told you not to spend money buying those things..no more next time okay..=.=''
Thank you...

Well changed msia money to sg money but money limited..sigh.. 50 sing dollars..
Food for today almost 6 bucks, then bought my toiletries..about 6 bucks..movie 10 bucks..then top up my ezlink..20 bucks..so left with 5 buck for tmr..=x
Really got to plan my 1st pay..

Stil owe su about $40 if i not wrong..for the chalet..
Then my credit bills and phone bills...hopefully can settle half of it..dun wan let parents know..if not they'll kill me..=p
I'm big enough le..got to learn..

At least i get to pay my phone bills and other things myself..toiletries oso i buy..guess nxt time i oso have to set aside household allowance and parent's allowance..and my own savings..plan plan plan..

Enjoy some of the pics..yawn..

My room...Before and after

The chicken rice..which i dont tink its nice..cos the rice is abit wet..miss the food in kulim..

The food i miss...penang laksa..kulim's hockkien mee (not like sg de..not prawn noodle..its soup based..), msia chicken rice, msia's nasi lemak, msia's sambal fried rice, msia's ying yong..omg..drools..

Well been waking up at 6am these days..think my body is starting to adapt to the early timing..haha..good start! Okay back to my anime..

2009-09-21T00:09:00.003+08:00

Watched Toradora until ep 19..touching story..thinking of it..
I am the character of palm tiger..the girl..only except i am not violent lol..or mayb at times i am..
always wanting ppl to be happy..even if its just sacrifising my own happiness.
Foolish right? But what to do.. thats me..hard to change..

Ppl told me sometimes i have to think for my own things which i want and not let go..
While some said that i should pamper myself..
Haha but those are not impt.
I dont mind spending money or presents on my family members or friends..
Haha but if it were for myself..i feel the ouch..of spending money. =p
I'm always the little MISS YES MADAM..=x
I love the anime..guess i will keep myself busy with animes or online movies..haha..
Am i really getting to where i want to?

2009-09-20T22:14:00.005+08:00

Its been sometime ever since i've blogged..though its not weeks but days ba..
Reason due to not getting too addicted in using computer..

Thurs...
Hmm started observing class at 930..which means 730 to 930 i have nothing to do..
And i was hungry but tot its too early to eat..but after much thoughts..decided to eat before i go observation.
So ate rice at 9am..den 1030 to 11am..just went back office to rest..after that 11 to 1pm have another 2 classes..
1pm..nothing to do le so just went to library to borrow some books.
After that..went to get my key settled and went to je library to get some books on classroom management. Then went home after that..

Friday..
Same thing..went to school..but no assembly cos its psle listening compre..
So 730am to 130pm..basically i had nothing to do..so read books thru out till my neck stiff..gosh..
After that wanted to buy lunch but no more..sigh..got hor fan but i dont want..so end up eating the moon cake dad gave..but dare not eat too much cos its sweet.
2pm went to rehearsal..going to do a skip on children's day.. =.=''

Oh and i found out in my school there are 2 more teahers with similar name as me..hee..li hua..=p which made me always turn around when other teachers call out.faints..

After 330pm..went home first and then met dar dar..
Due to the rain..we din go as our plan but instead went jp for movie..
We also went to lib..hee dar dar so cute..its romantic to have dar dar spending time with me..on malls, movies, and even if its jjust the library or in bus..thanks dar..

Sat..met dar dar by rite go sentosa with polymates but they end up changing plan to jilong's hse for drinks and mahjong session..sigh..but dar dar cant drink and i know vince..so better not bring him down.
Well somethings which spoiled dar dar's day..and made me think alot.
But i tried not to tink too much..though he said things settled..but my mind stil have lots of quries..or question marks..but didnt want to let dar worry so kept it to myself..including today..sorry dar..just dont want to stress you more..

Well just hope that things will be smoothly for us..
Dont wish to be the spoiler of someone's happiness.
also dont wish to lost trust or have a breaking heart anymore..

Went home..den mum was surprised when i reached home at 2 plus today..faints..haha
reach home early oso ask..reach home late oso ask..=p
So decorate my room further..
Den slept for awhile..

Went for dinner with parents..den back home, i ironed abt 30 pieces of clothing or more den that..oso listening to wad dad and mum talking abt ricky..hee..
Well mum was like saying things until like i'm going to marry dar dar..and for dad he was refering as though i and dar was tgt for quite long time..faints..i just act didnt hear it. Sometimes my parents are very cute..hee..

Watched a channel 8 taiwan drama..wa long long story but i didnt like it cos always show bad side of human nature..plotting schemes or hurting other ppl..
Also get to see husband cheats on wife..etc.

Hmm my point of view..if i were the wife..i wouldnt forgive if my husband cheats on me..definitly a no no..
No matter how much he change..stil no..
i also dont agree on having to boats at one time..this applies male and females..
Then after i have lots of thoughts in me..sigh..

i dont wish ppl to say i thrid party or anything..
i dont wish my future bf's parents think bad of me..
i dont wish my parents to lose trust on me..

In life like wad dad say..as long as the man can take care of you..and love you..doesnt matter whether he rich or not..
Yup and all i wanted was love..thats all..though in sg its hard if no money..but i dont go for money..like some of my frens know even if i had no money..i'll just choose to suffer myself.

I should learn how to save le..now being an adult in the working society..i have to.
sometimes...duno is i am tryint to rush things or wad..
But guess i shall not say further of wad i am thinking..
haha mum keep hinting me when will i get to meet dar's parents..erm but then i guess wont be that fast ba..will let dar settle his things first..so hope mum wont ask more abt when i am meeting dar dar's family..dont want to give pressure from me and his parents oso.
Just believe that he is true to me..thats all i ask for.

Okay some photos..just enjoy..nothing much to take..sigh..
Nothing interesting nowadays..mayb lantern festival celebration or during children's day celebration ba..=p

Food paradise? But wad they selling??

My attire in school...

Eee..my mind is killing me softly.
How i wish i can dont tink so much..cut my brain out..
Should find more things to do..then i wont tink..grrr..
Guess now having lesser time tgt with my gal frens..lol guess we are busy with our bfs ba..but thats life..
Have to accept it.

Hope to get busy with my school..
Haha..so far in school there are not much male teachers =p
opps dear wil kill me if he reads tis..haha joking.
Well basically other den vincent ng..and another teacher who looks cute..the others are mature =p
Hee..okay got to end her..tired of blogging..
Update soon..

Oh ya Selamat Hari Raya to all my muslim friends!!! XD

2009-09-16T18:35:00.002+08:00

Wednesday..woohoo..my 3rd day at school.
Morning assemble..gosh think i need to really go write out and practise the pin yin. Goal..learn pledge by end of next week.

Hmm then after had maths lesson for 30 min den rest 30 min and then another maths lesson. Faints think i have to get used to the 30 min lesson timing..
9am to 11am..i had nothing to do..somemore not so hungry but still think i better have something if not for sure contact meeting sure hungry de..
So went to the pantry..had my cereal drink and read a magazine.."mother and baby"
Lol..interesting..and omg..the children are so adorable!

1030 went to wash room then off to sci class..
Noticed that the class was hyper but not team bonding among their groups.
The teacher was very upset. But i also manage to know of what classroom management is like and how will the experiment being affected if i m in a situation like today.
But then overall okay.
Soon..continue with another science class (gifted class)
Wow..P4 know ppt more den me back then.
Stil know how to put animation, sounds etc.
Envy....heng my ppt stil can say okay de..haha..
P4 do powerpoint le..omg..

Soon 1pm..went to get something to eat..the fruit machine dun wan accept my money..=.='' so bought a bread instead. Think i better buy some food from nxt week onwards...hmm guess have to wake up same timing but shower faster and prepare my whole day meal ba.
It'll be healthier and can save cost ba.

Meeting from 130 to abt 330pm..gosh..when i was on the way back to staff room..i saw the kids in wu shu's clothing!!! OMG..
And guess wad..when i was abt to leave sch..i saw this wu shu coach..guess who???
It's the mediacrop artist..vincent ng! Guess he knows i am new ba..he look at me..and i look but just didnt bother to smile..lol..still i think my dar dar is bette looking..haha dats my point of view only.. =)

Met jennifer den went near my hse for brunch at 5pm..faints..ate rice cos whole day nvr really eat..but drank ba..
Okay think i shall end here..tmr another day!

Oh ya..haha i wil be having holiday on weekday..hee..good lor..i'm loving my school!
Hope can become like ai-yo-yo lao shi..haha where all children will love me..
Looking forward to the lantern festival in school!

Let's jia you tgt dar...i believe you can do it! And me too..plan plan plan..

What's next after getting a job?
Teaching materials?
Enrichment courses?
Car license?
Birthday present for myself..?

Hmm what do i want?

2009-09-15T21:51:00.010+08:00

Woohoo..it's been almost one week ever since i really blog.

Well been busy clearing my room and also with my preparation for work.
Went to buy clothings, shoes, make up products..
Well to be short..i bought 5 dresses, 2 long pants, 2 skirts, 4 pairs of shoes, one belt and my makeup pdt. Alot rite..but what i think its not alot..being a teacher..needs to dress up. gosh..

sometings went way to high and way too low..been troubled till i cant slp..
But at last its being solved.
i'm open to say that i'm officially attached..yes i am so dont text me and ask eh u attached le ah..to answer again..yes i am attached to someone cute =)

Now to my work...
Hee....

Monday..
Gosh, i missed the bus 99 for just 5 seconds..then have to wait 30 min for the nxt one..heng i was really on the dot..
Got to know the principle and vice principle..(gosh the vp is my interviewer =p)
My colleague was so friendly and warm..she intro me to many teachers but i cant rmb all in one day..lol..
Then went up to staff room to put things and also gotten a temp staff card..

Soon after got to know my sitting place ..heng is not the one i first sat..that place is super cold..burrr..=s
Read thru to recap on sci..
Oh ya..i was assigned to be a science teacher..most probably cca is science too..hee
cool..might also help out in the fern garden..^^

Tues..
First time sang the national song after 3 years..lol..
Omg...the pledge was taken in mandarin!!! faints..i only know.. wo men shi shin jia po gong ming.. ................silence..lol..oops..
Went to observe 3 classes today.. 2 classes of P5 (one is normal class, another is a GE class)..and the last class was P3..wow..they are sooo obedient..

Today went off at 1.45pm..haha earliest..=p
Hope i can teach like the others..they are so confident..

Okay there are some photos..do enjoy ba..yawn..

...12th Sept 2009...[me and dar dar]

Me in dar dar's favourite tshirt..woah its big..haha..can b a dress ^^

Other photos..
New look before start of work..

Eh..kenny dun angry ah..is u want me to not put ur face in the photo de..so i just do as u say..(lucas bday at coasta sands)

Parrot that drinks beer! OMG..

Trip to JB..nice food there! Going there soon!

My 1st day at work photos..hee..

Hmm once my work settle down..then i will take more nicer photos.. ^^
Haha..i love my working place..
Jia you dar dar..i know you can do it..let's work tgt hand in hand..

2009-09-09T04:45:00.003+08:00

What have i just done to hurt 4 people in a few seconds?
2 girls and 2 guys..
nana..dun sad okay..i stil love you gal..

2009-09-08T21:29:00.002+08:00

Monday - 7th Sept 2009 -

Collect pay
Chill around
Down to orchard
Go temple
Meet Hong Wei for dinner
Walk around
Found shoes
Home sweet home

Tuesday - 8th Sept 2009 -

Out for lunch with mum
Down to MND
Briefing
To esplanade
Home sweet home for dinner

2009-09-04T14:16:00.000+08:00

Omg..4 confessions within 5 days..
Duno whether real or not..
Well have to let time decide who is able to win over my heart ba..
Not only have to see how they win my heart..but also other factors ba..
As in future how will we be like..whether are we able to afford being tgt..
Whether will i be able to bring him home to meet my parents and whether will they give me their blessings..which is most important.
One last thing is..whether will he change when we are tgt..
Ah..dun wan to tink of anyting liao..

Oh these few days have some photos but busy now..no time to post it here..
Maybe sunday ba..
Shall end here..going to clear my room again!

i'm love sunflowers!

2009-09-01T23:45:00.004+08:00

Morning was pulled out of bed..
Went down accompany mum for breakfast then went home shower den out of house to meet my friend for lunch.
Gosh been sometime since i last met guna..erm..tink abt 2 mths? missed her lots too..
Then after went down kovan with nana to meet jac..tot wad happened..

This was wad she told me..(similar la..)
Jac: erm. lee wah u free? I need to talk to you..
Me: Oh wad is it? Waad happen?
Jac: Can we just meet you? Have to talk to you..
Me: HUH..wad happen? erm..your "we" is who? Erm can talk on the phone oso..
Jac: Ahhh..talk face to face better..we..as in me and justin need to ask you something..
Me: ask on phone oso can ma...huh? why you and justin..something happened???
Jac: Err no la nothing big..aiya dont worry meet le den say..
Me: huh..erm can ask on phone leh..weird weird leh..wad is it?
Jac: we meet then talk ba..dont worry..
Me: Orh..okay...
Jac: See you..

So went down kovan..and saw jac and jes...so they were telling me that..
HOk san lion dance from china wants our youth group photos..and cos our photos online is water marked..so hope that can make into an album to pass it to them..
Then i was like thinking..erm..okayzz..so? And? Haha..i tot should ask zh..
So they say ya..but zh told them to do..den i was like huh? How come zh nvr tell me anyting..

Then i noticed something..jes had one hand behind her back..something is fishy..
Soon they asked for my bag..i was like huh? Wad for?
So i din go so near..haha then they just pass the doreamons to jennifer..omg..
Thanks gals..i didnt know you all went to get the doreamons for me cos i love doreamons!!! Thank you thank you!!!

Went orchard to visit ricky..
Gosh its been such a long time ever since we've met..
I think got about 3 years ba..
Haha..

Hmm then after walked down bugis temple to pray.
Went to shop around bugis cos tot my friend coming to fetch me for dinner but too bad he has somehting on so went mind cafe..
Visit unicel and the rest..oh my jie jie leaving soon..sigh..
Tmr will go down mind cafe to give her a goodbye gift..sobs..gonna miss her..='(

Soon after nana has to go back..so i went down to meet my friend to have a short chat ba..so long never meet le..haha think its fate to meet back this friend ba..
Then he told me he did like me in the past and now..woah..interesting..haha..well if he has been daring in the past..=p

Today got to find out that not only guys like me but also girls..haha..and they do hope i can be their girlfriend..omg..haha shhhhh..

Okie enjoy the photos of the day! XD

2009-08-31T22:05:00.004+08:00

Morninng had breakfast with mum then back home..
Waiting for my job email..but dun have yet..getting impatient..bored of life without work..sigh..

Went to cc to book badminton court..then walked down imm..
Walked into adidas..i duno why i went in but i was searching for slippers..but i dont need one..except i rmb one of my friend needs slippers.
Went challenger to buy the mp3 cable and then oso bought a bag for cds..den i can save my space..haha..by rite want to buy the 45 cd cover hanging on door de but i rmb i am not that tall so better not..haha

Suddenly when walking around felt headache..but continue walking..went to check on the osim thing..then walked thru best denki..
Saw quite afew things i wanted..but realised that cannot buy now..impt is my working things..sigh..nvm i will wait..

Went to buy my toiletries..well my shower foams, shampoo, pads and some tidbits..alrdy cost me abt 30 bucks..sigh..ouch..no choice..adult le..got to learn to buy these things without using external allowance from parents..
I dont like the feeling of spending money to buy things..lol but if dont spend money then cannot have the things i want or need..silly me..

Went into popular but couldnt find anything i can get for lucas..so went home after that..walked home then felt very hungry so bought fried rice..
Reached home feeling very moody..omg den i realised that i having mood swings..=(

Whole evening mood swings but got to do some thing in my room think by friday i can clear most things..i want to make my room as empty as possible..

Then after i can get a lcd screen to connect to my old laptop cos the screen black out. Mayb then when i get my 2nd pay, i can get myself a printer..
Subsequently i will get more and more doreamon! Haha..decorate my room with loads of doreamon..

Okie gtg..tired le..yawn..hope my mood swings will be better tomorrow..sigh..

enjoy the photos..haha..the cat cute..

Wasted this amount of rice..sigh.. =(
Thats why i dont like eating so much rice..need to control my diet..oh god forgive me..think of those ppl who dont have enuf food to eat..sigh..sorry..

2009-08-31T03:13:00.003+08:00

Woah hoo...gotten one out of 6 doreamon toys from mac today..
Ohhh i want all of it..haha guess i wil have to spend alot..but nvm..those cant be really found outside de..

Guess nxt time i wil fill my room with doreamon! Haha..

Watched "year one"..funny movie..brings laughters..hee
Stil have lots of movies havnt watch yet..

- The Proposal
- The final destination
- GI Joe
- G-Force
- Time Traveller's wife
- Aliens on the Attic
and many many more...

Had a great time with kenny..haha he not only accompanied me for movies but also brought me to try out nice food which is at reasonable price and also some places i never went before..

Went to Bottle Tree..where ppl can do prawning..
We both ordered a drink and watched soccer tgt..
Now then i know why ppl like soccer so much..other den the betting, is more of the skills of how the playes kick and score..sometimes its just a miss only..
Haha..

Well guess i will miss these late nite outings soon cos we both wil be starting school soon. =p
But nvm stil hav other activities to do!

Okie got to end here..if not really panda eyes...

2009-08-29T23:59:00.012+08:00

Ho ho..today was a fruitful day..
Went to places i never went before and also places where i used to go before but didnt been there for quite sometime. Got to thank my friend kenny! Thanks brother!

Morning had light snack with parents then met my friend..
First we went to had lunch at clementi..haha the jap shop where i used to go there with karen and hwee hwee..
Ate the soba noodle..lol..

Then after lunch went down to pet farm at tamp.
Woah..alot of puppies for sale there but ex..
Took some photos of the fish, duck and turkey at pet farm 2..
Then saw some training place for the dogs..

Wa first time i get in contact with so many golden retrievers!!! OMG..and i get to touch it! Haha..oh ya and i saw one super lengthy dog..tink if stand up its taller den yang fan..gosh..

Enjoy the photos..

Haha two big fish..about the length of a van..

Some photos are cute..like the one with alot of fishes cramping in one corner with eyes popping out.

Haha..oh ya i took a photo of a stone fish.

Eww..i dun like tis fish...

Oh my...aiming for honda jass..

Then after pet farm, we went to ikea for a walk..oohh one bed super nice to lie on..
Think my bday gift for myself this year using my 1st full time allowance will be a bed. Hee..
Walked to courts..omg the music was blasting loud..couldnt stand it..sigh..
After that went down outram for meeting..actually dun need to go down de lor..
Sigh..but then 1 hour later kenny came to fetch me..woah..his new hair cut..
Hee handsome uncle yea? =p joking

We went down to have dinner..omg the food is tasty..price is worth it..alot ppl wen there to eat.
After dinner, we went down to henderson wave..nice view at nite..

Hmm then after wanted to go to sky tower but then closed le so in the end we went to west coast seaside..alot ppl there camping and walking around at that hour.
Haha..gosh..we played some play ground stuff..brings back my childhood memories..

Gosh..i forgot wad i wanna say le..=.='' Old alrdy..

Oh ya..i wish i can collect all 6 doreamon things..got to clear my room haha..
okie tink i going knock off le..zzzz
Love, jerrine..

2009-08-27T21:39:00.011+08:00

Hoho..super tired..just came back from chalet @ sentosa and vivo..
Tuesday met wayne nearby vivo..he drove me around before meeting su..
Then me and su went to apply the islander pass..woohoo..menas next time i can enter sentosa without paying..

After that we went around to walk..bought some stuff..towel, tidbits, somethings at daiso..etc..
Then after at about 3pm or so we went down sentosa to check in.
Hmm by right we book the hut for 3days 2 nites is $60..so each was $30..
Then after the man asked if we would want to upgrade to superior room..
He said another 70 more..means each person pay extra $35 to have a room..so we think..3days 2 nite is $65 each..not bad..so i was okay..su oso okay..so she paid 1st..

Our room was 0309..hee my favourite number..
After puting our things..
We went down for sun tanning at siloso beach..hmm not so sunny..then at about 5 plus going 6..we went back and su showed me some of her photos..
Erm my hp kept on beeping..oops sorry..guess su was fustrated..lol..
At about 7 we went out to have dinner and about 10.30 we're back into our room.
Then we chatted and watched tv..soon after i guess i just doze off..snoring..omg..

Wed,
I woke up earlier..think cos i am not used to sleeping else where..
Then went to shower and wait for su to wake up.
Soon after i went down to check my mail and called up to ask more about my job.
Went back upstairs den went down to swim while su sun tan..the pool is abit small so i was kind of bored swimming there..lol end up using laptop and smsing.

Then about 4 plus went to shower and we both prepare for outing..
Went to HL and then mind cafe and off to clubs..
Su met one of her fren..so we two got in without joinning the line.
Erm..some more got 5 free drinks. omg..
The ambience was nice..

We went to Attica, Double O, O club, Rebel, Lunar...hmm well so far i have a good impression about the clubs..only one..i guess...which is Attica..erm..rebel was okay..but the music too loud and the ppl going there was like..young??? Lol..

Well at attica one guy aproached me and wanted to chat more with me..haha heng su came back then he was like..oh..sorry sorry..and off he went..hee. oops sorry not interested..

I think in future, i m going to attica if i want to club..but will want to try zouk and st. james..
Soon after we left early cos other clubs i was bored inside..and i cant believe it..its ladies nite..lol tink one day should go on sat nite..

Reached back chalet was about 3 plus..den i fell asleep. Woke up at about 10 omg..too tired..then pack things and out we went..

Its thurs..so checked out and su went to try out the sky ride once and luge..
After that went to sun tan..
And about 1:30pm went to shower..3pm we're out sitting and relaxing before we went to vivo then met yang fan for meal.
After that went walking around..and took cab home..omg yang fan paid for the cab fare..dots..
Think one day i will buy tings down for him..thinking wad to buy..
Haha..

Oh boy..how i wish i will have a someone to go sentosa with me every sat. Lol..yawn..tired..

Some photos..

Me...and su..=p

Omg these pets are soo cute!

Su...and Yang fan..

The foods..yummy..

More photos.. =D

Saw one photo up there and duno why i took the lorry?
Well i am taking the background of it cos thats the new entertainment in sentosa..soon to be..some water thingi..omg..soon there will be more attractions..
Woohooo..i can walk long distance..i dont mind the sun..i dont mind the water but please please please..no asking me to play roller coaster...omg..

During these few days..
I learn quite afew things..
Guess i have to really change myself.
yes i must..to improve myself more..jia you lee wah! Jerrine!

2009-08-26T12:39:00.000+08:00

i'm at costa sands SENTOSA now..Yippee!

2009-08-25T00:09:00.003+08:00

Should post some of my old photos of myself..hee.. enjoy..

2009-08-24T19:43:00.002+08:00

Wooohooo! Yes! YEs! Yes..my first full time job! Haha..sooooo happy!
Never felt so delighted before! Its even much happier than me getting my graduation results..haha..

I am being accepted by moe..as allied educator..
Haha so happy..and i will be teaching primary school..erm..abit scary..ooops But i will do my very best!!!

Chill..haha tink tonite til thurs i cant slp..omg..haha..oops..
Okie wil be away on chalet tmr.. =D

2009-08-24T00:39:00.003+08:00

Omg..Marcus Schenberg..omg..drools...but then my expectation not so high..haha more near to him would be perfect! Omg..oops..haha no wonder my guy frens say that i wont get to have a boyfriend.. =p

Yesterday was late while meeting ming feng..so sorry bro..omg..
Hmm took cab down outram then went lion dance training..

After training, went hougang to meet su..
Oh i found out about mf's interest too! interesting! haha..
Then met up and went to hougang blk 681 to try out the food..
OMg..the food is nice..we ordered combo A which includes seafood pasta, fried rice with egg, single burger, 2 soups and one salad..plus additional alacarte aglio olio..
Omg..its delicious..esp the soup..yummy..

At first kelvin say meet him at his place cos he going amk for bb..den i was okay on my way down and i called he said his dad driving him down and its a private condo i cant enter..erm i guess if its his frens place..as long as his fren agree to let me go, i dun tink i wun b allowed in..hello i have friends living in those private condos and its ex ones okay! taking me as a small kid?
Nvm..if dont want to meet me just tell me, i can take it..dun waste my time man..

so din want to go home straight..went for movie at causeway point. ha..tot "last hse on the left" was a horror movie but actually its not..its more to some revenge movie but afew ewww scences..but the movie was okay la..

Next movie to watch..erm i tink shld be gi joe, orphan, the proposal and up...ooooh so many movies i want to watch..haha..

Okay here are some photos of the food and lovely friends i have...

Omg.. i realised that i have clive photo in here..haha naughty him..eating donuts outside mind..oops..

Oooohhh i fell in love with these doggie photos..by right i didnt like small dogs but seeing this photos, its soo cute! Some photo shows the dog is so handsome but then hor..its a she..=p

Firstly i will need to buy myself a bigger house with lesser things inside then i will get a pet dog...aww..labador or retriever?
Would love the guy wholeheartedly if he really buys a pet dog for me..aw....

Gosh..this cake is yummy lor..dad bought for mum..
But she cant eat too many sweet things so..erm i ate almost half of it..gosh its nice!!! But fattening..haha

Oh if want to try nice cakes..must try the food for thought cakes..they have banana choco cake, and different types of cheese cakes..its yummy too!

2009-08-20T15:05:00.003+08:00

Ho ho..my blog is 3 years old! Oh if you are wondering how come only afew post..well cos i've deleted the past.. =D

Seems like i am doing matchmaking..
Some of my friends ask me why i dont do it for myself..haha crazy..
Now i dun intend to find..cos everytime when i an finding..either the person find someone else if not then i tend to intro better gals to them..haha

Good men are always taken..or soon to be taken after match making..oops..haha..
Okie shall end here..yawn..

Life is boring without work..

2009-08-19T13:34:00.005+08:00

Morning woke up at 6am..then out of house by 6.30..sigh..took train down to toa payoh stadium.

By right today 2 friends said that they'll accompany me..but then one back out yesterday and another just din reply me..so went on myself.
Reached there tot i was late..but there are more people later..
Girls had to wait cos the ns guys first..think there are about 150 participants.

And there are 18 girls..6 are to army..while the rest i think is air force i guess..
Some are still student while some are just like me..well i am the most bigger built in size..as for race wise..i think chinese and indian gals have equal numbers..or mayb indians are more..(not racist ah..)..they are actually friendly!

Well the first station was, standing broad jump and i was 2 in the group as my tag number is 102..omg..i fell so paiseh..but nvm..2 trys..but i din manage to pass, only jumped 140cm.. then after when have time i retook but the best i can get was 145cm..

2nd station was sit up..my max limit i can do is 23..sigh..then i cant pull myself up alrdy..well heng for me 23 is considered pass..some of the girls do less den 20..

3rd stop was shuttle run..well first try i got 12.9 sec..which is a fail..
But lucky i was given a 2nd try..and then i got 11.5sec..kind of happy but i believe that mayb i can do better..

4th is the inclinded pull up..8 is a min pass..means its a D..i manage to do 9..not bad but hopefully i can do more next time..

5th stop was sit and reach..damn i tot i can stretch far but then duno why tis time like..erm erm...omg..but still pass..not bad..haha..should do more stretching to be as flexible as last time..=p

And the final round..was 2.4km run..sigh..i fail as expexted..one thing is i din train..but not an issue, cos i know i can jog but not fast...
Hmm timing wise i tink better den last time..

After run, i actually want to cherr on the other participants but then i was out of breath..lips turn purple..everytime like that..
By right during my 2nd round, i wanted to just give up but heng i didnt..still manage to jog all 6 rounds..

THen after we waited for our results...so the whole thing ends at 11.30am..went for shower den off i'm home..din want to go out..din have the mood..

TOld dad on the phone i failed..he was upset..saying you dont have the heart..how to pass? Din put in effort to buy a better shoe..wth..my adidas shoe is the most comfortable one..and doesnt mean by buying a good shoe can pass napfa right?
When i reached home..saw dad..he shook head and oso said..you tis girl no hope..you ownself go take care of urself find ur own job la..(ouch..aigh...)

...Napfa results...
Sit up: 23 (2points)
Chin up: 9 (2points)
Sit & Reach: 38 (3points)
Broad Jump: 145 (0points)
Shuttle Run: 11.6 (4points)
2.4Km run: 18.45(0points)

Total: 11points
Result: FAIL (LOL)

Its kind of sad..where i cant jump..=(

Comparing my result during sec school..hmm..

-2003-
Sit up: 22
Chin up: 5
Sit & Reach: 37
Broad Jump: 159
Shuttle Run: 12.0
2.4Km run: 18.10
Total: Scored 14 points based on age 15 (2003)

-2004-
Sit up: 26
Chin up: 5
Sit & Reach: 35
Broad Jump: 155
Shuttle Run: 12.0
2.4Km run: 19.36
Total: Scored 11 points based on age 16 (2004)

-2005-
Sit up: 22
Chin up: 6
Sit & Reach: 41
Broad Jump: 169
Shuttle Run: 11.6
2.4Km run: 18.04
Total: Scored 12 points based on age 17 (2005)

Then 3 years never take napfa and today was the 1st napfa i taken after 3 years in poly..haha..but did jog for sometime about may to end july 2007...hope i can find that motivation back! Haha..

Dont care..i am so going to PASS MY NAPFA!!! Grrr..even though if i am not entering air force! haha..

BAck home..hang clothings den by right suppose to meet clive, but i din have the mood to go out..sorry..
Well i am thinking..since most of the time when i need someone to be there for some suppost, i cant find..then what for do i always be there for others? I'm sick and tired of helping or being there for others..might as well just depend on myself right?

Called up to book another napfa date..16th sept..i wish i can jump further..and run faster..

Shall change whatever i can change soon..be it msn, blog, everything..

Hmm..one more day then i have officially blogged for 3 year! haha..
Lame..i know..=x
ANyway yesterday yang fan's bday celebration went well..only thing was...nabin saw the photos of our past taken tgt wif yang fan..i dun bother abt it but he is very very funny..he called me just to say..he tink abt the past..etc..oh crap..you have a wife now..so pls pls leave my feelings alone..

Well i do feel abit uneasy when i see him but i m okay wif it..only thing i dont like is when out of no where..jie jie ask me..eh you two see each other never talk alrdy ah..or you two broke up le then never contact? Sigh...why keep on asking the same question again and again..although i nvr show how i feel but inside me i am really in delimma..hope she wun ask again..='(

She told me that nabin showed her his wife's photo taken tgt..den jie say very chubby..after that saw her full body pic..she say head very big..dots..
Aiya..people pretty..no matter how big the head is..still pretty..lol..
Okay enuf of talking abt nabin..

Blog again! Yawn...

2009-08-18T23:14:00.003+08:00

Now i am having the feeling of sickness..
Dont know is it cos of monday, i was in the rain or today..but cannot be leh..only for 10 seconds nia..

Well today saw a beautiful rabbit..
Its cute..but i still prefer a dog..

Thinking of getting a license..well both car and bike..
As for car..i wish i could have honda jass or honda fit..both are nice..either in yellow or shiny deep blue..

Oh boy..tmr napfa..dont know can run ma..
Somemore..clive not accompany me down le..tmr duno whether jennifer going or not..
Seems like i'm on my own le..jia you ba..sigh..

Okie got to go rest..should learn to sleep early and wake up early..
Got to get back my life..work, eat, sleep, then work, eat, sleep...thats it..

2009-08-18T00:39:00.003+08:00

Today went to get my weight measured..same..but body fats increase..sobs..
Cos last 10 days i anyhow eat..=x

Some people dont mind the age gap being much elder..but some mind.. 30 & 22..

Well went down purvis to bring the gift and leave it there plus went to buy a cake for fan fan..
Chill around bugis..then went home..yawn..boring day..

Tmr or can say today need to go set up cake..haha..i miss yang fan..

i miss john too..but i cant tell him..somethings are best kept to myself..

2009-08-17T01:32:00.005+08:00

Gosh..guess everyone is loving my new name Jerrine..they say it suits me..
Well credits goes to justin tan..

Did thought of names like belle, krstalbell, kassandra, kasey, jolie, melinda and etc...yet no one like those except jerrine..
Then by looking at my own photo..i think of jerrine..guess i will stick with this name for life.. lol..
It means spear ruler..lol..so do i hold a spear? Haha..okie time to sleep..

i miss the person who brought me to caramel cafe..(behind cathay)..will i ever get to see you again?

2009-08-16T22:22:00.005+08:00

Yawn..today is mama's bday..did a DIY gift for her..hope she likes it..Happy Birthday Mama!

Thanks chester and ZH for giving me morning call.. =D
Will try to come down training more often..
Today went out lunch with the boys..
Zhi wei, zhi xiang, zh, chester, ws, samuel, coung and me!
ZH say we are macam snow white and 7 dwarfs..haha..but too bad i m not snow white..lol..

After lunch we went back hs..the boys did some training on 3 drums..
At 1st i dare not play wif it..cos looks very chim..but after that..i felt its fun! I love the middle drum sound.. XD

Oh..saw tis doggy at my house coffeeshop today! So cute!!! I love dogs!

One ting today..i got scared of crows..Thanks to this stupid crow..came so near..just want to eat chicken rice..-.-''
After that came so near until 2 meters..omg..scared the hell out of me..now other den 6 legs creature i am scared..i am also scared of crow!!! OMG..

Gosh..owe ming $50..must rmb to pay him back asap...
Wish for me..pray for me..that i can get a full time job by sept!

2009-08-16T01:16:00.003+08:00

Am i suitable for the name jerrine?

Days had been kind of low for me..
Other than being told afew times that i need to shape up..change my hair do..well not one person..duno why these days kind of alot of ppl who sees me for the 1st time..gets to tell me that.

Was being told that i might get into depression if i dont take care..and also told that if i improve my appearance and size..i will be more stronger.
Well thanks..i accept all comments now..

Hmm as being advice by justin not to put the blame on others..erm well okay..
Haha..guess heng one ting is i din have a bf..if not he wil sure run away de.
Sigh doubting on myself..actually i am always been searching to have a bf...or someone who can let me hug or lie on his shoulder most of the time..but its hard to get one where i even myself have no confidence..

Its true that alot ppl say i have no confidence..
Been trying hard to change myself..but its very very hard.

Today..went to work..sian..got 4 ppl in the afternoon..ch was so hardworking..do eveyrthing so fast..and i am doubting whether is the problem lies on me? Am i really that slow? Basically ch can do everything where me, uni and justin just stand there do nothing..good employee..

Hmm was surprised today actually afew tables customers actually like me teaching them games..hmm can say today i nvr really serve any main course except 2 beef lagsane..and serve drinks and snackers..
Wa really leh..i never get to put my hands on any main course like platter or cheesy fish and chips..or pastas..omg..miracle..

Got one big table..erm abt 10 ppl..actually asked for me to teach them games..gosh..so far is only when they raise their hands den mayb one of us go teach..but today they actually requested for me only to teach them..lol..but then i stil like them alot.

Well no matter how customers treat us..as in attitute wise..endurance is best..
Like today an uncle was actually abit scary..
Eat until whole table super messy..justin see le oso shock..haha so i told him to help me serve main course while i clear the table.
And he did request alot of things including extra things which he alrdy have it on table..but then overall he doesnt give much problem.

Before i get to leave the cafe, one table was happy while leaving mind cafe..they said..thank you to me and say that its a place where ppl usually leave laughing..haha..cos of games and fun they had in mind cafe..

Hmm guess i need to spend more time with myself..
Should stop smsing alot of my frens to ask if they can meet up.
I am getting on ppl's nerves i guess..haha..

Okie tired le..ciao...=)

2009-08-14T11:53:00.004+08:00

Don't know how to use facebook to post a note. So din bother..haha just post it here ba..

Three names I go by:
1. Jerrine
2. Lihua
3. Ahma

Three Jobs I have had in my life:
1. Admin Assistant
2. Waitress
3. Game assistant

Three Places I have lived:
1. Malaysia
2. Singapore
3. New Zealand??

Three Favorite drinks:
1. Plain water
2. papaya juice
3. Honey green tea

Three TV Shows that I watch:
1,2,3: Seldom at home so never watch..

Three places I have been:
1.Thailand
2. malaysia
3. Indonesia

Three places I am looking forward to go:
1. New Zealand
2. Canada
3. Cuba

People that call me regularly:
1. Family
2. To be filled in..
3. i call most of the time..sigh..

Three of my favorite foods:
1. Penang Laksa
2. Food at buckaroo
3. Cheezy Fish and chip

Three friends I think will respond:
1. Karen
2. Sus
3. Hui xian instead of jt

Three things I am looking forward to:
1. Career at sentosa!
2. A 4 room hdb for myself
3. Golden retriver

Three things that are always by your side:
1. Family
2. Sus
3. myself

Three things I always look forward to during weekends?
1. Window shopping
2. Sleep
3. Daydreaming

Three things I always do every morning
1. Drink water
2. Shower
3. Check sms

2009-08-14T00:17:00.005+08:00

Went thru my camera photos..and i actually remembered that i have some photos which should have deleted long time ago..

Memories..well..it hurts in my heart whenever i see the photos taken together with nabin but guess i have gotten over him..
Well he is such a liar..sigh..now put all the blame on me for letting people know about our relationship? Nvm..no matter wad..its a learning pathway for me ba..which really changed my life..

Back to my photos..hmmm...

This table customers were nice..well kitchen made the mistake for cheezy fish with fish and chip..Well as usual trys to push the blame but tis time is not our fault cos its the lemon fault..ha..
Well they wanted a photo together with me..reason they gave cos i've took good care of them throughout their stay there..
They pity me while explaining games to them cos everytime they wanted to play a game..duno is i suay or wad..haha i always have to use high voice to explain cos its very very noisy. Hope to have more nice customers.. =D

Well no matter what status we are..all are still humans right? All have feelings..so why some people treat others differently?
Does being beautiful or sexy matters? Well okay..i cannot say no..REALITY..

Well i am gonna miss the parrot at dempsy hill..

2009-08-11T02:12:00.002+08:00

Hoho...took me one whole day to create a blog template..erm not fully is mine la..but i did much of the editing and links..omg..really give me a big big headache..

Actually thought of giving up and use my old template which is same as my personal blog..but then since monday my 1.5 pay per hour schedule is being cancelled cos got new full timer..den i might as well stay home..cos i no money to go out le..sobs.. =(

I NEED MONEY!!!

Okay back to my blog..haha well i'm very happy with the blog template now..although not so perfect..but still hope its presentable.. XD
Let you all see some photos..haha..enjoy..

Hmm once the blog is officially ready then i will let you all know ba..
I need sometime to prepare myself to DIY stuffs and also some plannings with my partner..
The blogshop will have two owners..
Okay think its time for me to sleep..yawn..i've used up alot of my brain cells...

2009-08-10T01:44:00.000+08:00

Love seeing different BIRTHDAY CAKES!

2009-08-08T01:22:00.002+08:00

Finally decided to create a public blog for myself..
Use to have a blog which only close friends are able to visit but days and months has passed...things changes rapidly..ya so...haha..

I am enjoying designing or can say creating new things..be it gifts for my friends or something for myself..i am also starting to enjoy good food!
Hoping that more new ideas will be created by me!!

As years goes by...when environment changes, people change too..
I've been even more independant ever since i have been through what i didnt even think of.
Just hope for the better that will be ahead of me..

FOr the past few weeks i have been out with su and some new friends i get to know..
Well i've learnt quite alot from some of them..
And also get to know more places and nice foods around Singapore!

Well for starters..i will post some photos...do enjoy!

At Caramel Cafe (behind Cathay)

Outing with Su at hougang..

Hmm well will update as much as possible..
Getting myself back on track and telling myself NOT TO BE LAZY BUMP!
Haha..Ohh...before i forget when i get busy these days..
"Happy Birthday Singapore!!!"